Friday, July 3, 2020

THE STARS WILL COLLAPSE aka COURTESY OF HEAVEN



in pain, in agony
the whole world groaned
and earth's cry was so very great

thick black clouds, all dust, no rain
stretched on like the stars
no spark nor hope for sparkle
what blinding and painful shame

yet bent and bowed in toil and sweat
came silent cries 
inmost whispers through the night
from rips and tears to gut wrenching tears that covered damp face's only twilight

with furrowed brow, mouth clenched
teeth piercing even tighter fist
at heart pounding wildly 
wide open cut tearing at
more of what sorrow rent

but bowed back slams down
heavy chest heaves up and
trodden head throws itself back
a different pleading with 
writhing rhythmic louder groan 

suddenly a faint cow bell chimes 
to a more heavenly moan
where lungs inhaled this
pungent flesh and dank air's song

kings and angels were peeking into her womb when heaven came down, earth bowed and all the stars collapsed


Signed,
SimonaGrace





Now let the weak say I am strong!


Sunday, May 17, 2020

BE STILL: IN THIS FIRE AND BEYOND


When I was a little girl my mom told me the story of how my godsister Yulanda became trapped in a fire in their home. Even more frightful, she was trapped upstairs while her mom was apart from her downstairs. Yulanda was just a little girl herself. So, I could imagine how afraid she was on that dreadful day.

My mom told me how Yulanda cried and cried as I'm sure any child would waking up to a house engulfed in flames.  The fire would rage on as Yulanda stood there rooted in so much fear.  She stood above the stairs apart from her mom who was desperately reaching for her downstairs. I'm sure Yulanda's mom was just as hysterical as she was being separated by such a horrific situation.

But, my mom said Yulanda's mom spoke to her daughter these words.


"Listen to my voice. . ."


A tear drops my eye here because I can't remember why my mom told me the story then. There are no words I could ever write to describe how it felt when she shared it with me. But, I will always remember how it felt when she shared it.

Although I'm not asleep under a rock, I don't watch the news and I barely watch TV.  I prefer LOLs over all my tears. I laugh now because I don't watch TV anymore, but I have just bought a TV stand that I'm about to paint! Oy vey Jocelyn!  So, I guess that's why I tuned in for what seems like the 2nd time now in this time of COVID. Oh my!  After only a few minutes, I had to turn off the TV and pray for my sanity and the sanity of the world.

I understand how people are so scared and worried now and I know first-hand anxiety's "middle name, birthday, address and social security number," I just can't believe that people are protesting Doctors!  I can't believe murder hornets exist and that they are ripping the heads off of honey bees! But moreso, I can't believe that it is 2020 and still these "honey bees," Ahmaud Aubrey and Breonna Taylor, whose blood is more precious than honey, have lost their lives so senselessly (please insert all our other "honey bees" and say all their names here, even now and forever #GeorgeFloyd's).

I'll admit I had become desensitized to much of the news, numbed out, just sad, but even more sad for the world which is waxing colder. So yeah, I can't watch the news like that anymore.  At first I thought, oh no I'll be out of touch, ill informed and most definitely a whimp, etc., etc. But, I just CAN'T digest it all anymore.

So this is why I am glad to remember how Yulanda made it out of the fire that dreadful day not "digesting" or listening to her own screams and fears nor the awful flames and fires raging all around her nor focusing on the flames separating her from her mother.  But, listening to this still, small word,

"Listen to my voice. . ."

LISTEN TO HIM! 

God is so amazing and I tearfully realize this more and more as I write then pause to answer the phone. My sister and young nephews are on their way to the park by my house for bike rides and a picnic. Even in this time of COVID-19, He is still doing great things, has not failed to blow my mind and still exceeds all my expectancy!

So yeah, Yulanda heeded the voice of her mother. She made it out of the fire safely that day and her namesake Jocelyn YOLANDA which means Joyful Lighthearted VIOLET FLOWER will make it out of these fires of life, too!


Prayer: LORD, thank You for how You've kept us and for how You keep us everyday. Thank You for our family and loved ones, especially, my sister Kimberly Diane and my nephews, Michael and Justin. Thank You for my best friend Tiffany and our little angel Jenessa! Keep Your Hand upon us and let nothing by any means harm us. 

The BLOOD all over our lives and those reading here. In Your Name JESUS we pray, Amen


Ink His with pen in hand,
Jocelyn



Monday, March 30, 2020

HIS GRACE




HIS GRACE
Will keep you
His grace
Will mold you
His grace
Will carry you
His grace
Will hold you
His grace
Will teach you
His grace
Will scold you
His grace
Will lift you
His grace
Will load you
His grace
Will find you
His grace
Will coax you
His grace
Will love you
His grace
Will show you
His grace will
His grace will
HIS GRACE


Receiving the End of My Faith
Even His Grace to Win This Race,
Jocelyn





Saturday, March 21, 2020

THICK BLACK LIKE NIGHT: SPLIT THE SKY


LORD, You split the void and gave to us light
Split open nostrils and men breathed life
You split the mud and gave man sight
You split the sea and nations crossed over
Split the rock and water overflowed us
You split a virgin's womb and all
the world blessed one man's wife
Split on your back, thirty nine lashes,
healed all of life, then went down
into a tomb, and up out of a grave
rose the Light


And by this I know that if the world is ending
and dark covers thick black like night. . .

You will split the sky

Shine,
Jocelyn



Prayer: Deliver us from the perils of this world. In Your name JESUS we pray, Amen and Amen






Friday, March 20, 2020

SPIN


LORD You spun the heavens and
they still testify and sing to You today.
Beyond the glow of every sun, the glitz
and glamour of each single star, the
candescent canopy of our own moon,
You are so beautiful God,
You are so beautiful God,
You are so beautiful God

Spinning in the Palm of Your Hand,
Jocelyn

Monday, February 24, 2020

SONATA aka RHYTHM

Who tells every stormy billow exactly where to wave its hand
Then takes every threatening breaker and shows it just where to land
And with each rise and swell of mighty most fearsome sway
Who lassos every angry tide
Stills it to gentlest ripple
And tells it when to subside. . .

Caught Up In the Galleries of His Heart,
Jocelyn












Sunday, February 9, 2020

TIDES




If you ever feel like giving up or think that "it" is not worth it, consider this. Some things are like waves in the ocean. We have breakers, crashing waves that come to topple our pretty little sandcastles, yet some waves are as calm and soothing as when walking along the most serene beach. The most amazing thing is, waves all come and go. Yes, the joy is that all of life's crashing breakers eventually go away, yet all the serene, calming and soothing waves come back again like a heartbeat. So, don't ever wonder if "it" was not a good idea. "It" could very well be God's heartbeat. "Let patience have her perfect work. . . (James 1:4-8)." I do believe that God breathes inspiration. If you felt inspired to start it then let God be the Author and Finisher of what faith you had in it from the beginning. Learn to ride the waves doll, even enjoy the breakers because while they come wild and fierce, they have to dissipate just as mightily, too (ref. Matthew 7:25). Realize the power you possess, take courage and go surfing on those turbulent breakers that threaten to drown you. But most of all, relax and release all the turbulence as the tides calm, and they do. Then stick your toes in and enjoy what granules of sand are watered because of the ocean's rhythm. Inhale, God is good all the time, now exhale, and all the time God is good. Even more, His Heartbeat is Sovereign and is always in control. Listen to the waves doll and receive this great, rolling and swelling peace which surpasses all understanding.  What seems a whale of a wave,  in God's eyes, is just this, peace and even a walk of faith with Him. Collect your newfound pearls, take heart and dive into the glorious sunrise that now bursts along the horizon.

Be brave ride the wave,
Jocelyn